How do you control that feeling when you feel like you want to control something that is not in your control?
Wow. That is a loaded question when I read it written out like that. I think that the key differentiation lies in the action around the word "control".
I know I can't control everything. Primarily because that is not my God given purpose, but also because I shouldn't. I have lived 38 years of experiences that are my own only. I have expertise in some areas, I know enough to be dangerous in others and I am flat our ignorant on all the rest. Me controlling everything would create too many problems and I would probably explode with anxiety resulting over what actions I did or did not take attempting to control things.
Controlling everything is not an option.
What can I control? Well, really the only thing I can control when it comes down to it is myself. My actions and emotions are mine alone. My actions and emotions are impacted by others and experiences. I seek to be guided by God. He gave me free will to own my actions and emotions. His teachings guide my decisions and create a foundation of morals and beliefs that make me who I am.
I am enough for me to control.
There are 168 hours in a week and every one of those (with the exception of when I am sleeping) gives me an opportunity to decide my action and emotions. Wasting time in the wilderness of worry was a big time suck in my past and I have since improved greatly; however, sometimes the question that I first posed above taunts me and I find it hard to return to center.
Eventually to answer that question takes defining what it is that is causing me to be in the wilderness of worry and to lay out some choices. How do I weed out the choices? I first ask which ones require work by others to play out and throw those out or add actions that I can take to help (talking to someone, asking them to help, etc.). Ultimately the choices have to consist of my next action, not someone else's. Secondly, I think through the results of taking that action or proceeding with that emotional decision and determine that some are not workable or desirable to solving the problem (not just a band-aid) and throw them out. Third, I take the top choices and ask what is the worst that could happen and ultimately make a choice from there.
Sometimes the best choice is to take a minute, take a deep breath (the action), smile (another action), write down my feelings on scrap paper and rip them up to say goodbye to them (the action mixes with emotion) and decide right then and there that I am going to be thankful and grateful (two awesome emotions) for the ability to even have a decision and make the choice to move forward in service to the world eager to help and use the gifts and talents that I have been given to make a difference for someone else.
It is not really about me anyway. It really isn't even about the other person in the end either. At the end of the day it is about serving others through the love and grace of Jesus Christ and that makes me smile.
Ashli
Wow. That is a loaded question when I read it written out like that. I think that the key differentiation lies in the action around the word "control".
I know I can't control everything. Primarily because that is not my God given purpose, but also because I shouldn't. I have lived 38 years of experiences that are my own only. I have expertise in some areas, I know enough to be dangerous in others and I am flat our ignorant on all the rest. Me controlling everything would create too many problems and I would probably explode with anxiety resulting over what actions I did or did not take attempting to control things.
Controlling everything is not an option.
What can I control? Well, really the only thing I can control when it comes down to it is myself. My actions and emotions are mine alone. My actions and emotions are impacted by others and experiences. I seek to be guided by God. He gave me free will to own my actions and emotions. His teachings guide my decisions and create a foundation of morals and beliefs that make me who I am.
I am enough for me to control.
There are 168 hours in a week and every one of those (with the exception of when I am sleeping) gives me an opportunity to decide my action and emotions. Wasting time in the wilderness of worry was a big time suck in my past and I have since improved greatly; however, sometimes the question that I first posed above taunts me and I find it hard to return to center.
Eventually to answer that question takes defining what it is that is causing me to be in the wilderness of worry and to lay out some choices. How do I weed out the choices? I first ask which ones require work by others to play out and throw those out or add actions that I can take to help (talking to someone, asking them to help, etc.). Ultimately the choices have to consist of my next action, not someone else's. Secondly, I think through the results of taking that action or proceeding with that emotional decision and determine that some are not workable or desirable to solving the problem (not just a band-aid) and throw them out. Third, I take the top choices and ask what is the worst that could happen and ultimately make a choice from there.
Sometimes the best choice is to take a minute, take a deep breath (the action), smile (another action), write down my feelings on scrap paper and rip them up to say goodbye to them (the action mixes with emotion) and decide right then and there that I am going to be thankful and grateful (two awesome emotions) for the ability to even have a decision and make the choice to move forward in service to the world eager to help and use the gifts and talents that I have been given to make a difference for someone else.
It is not really about me anyway. It really isn't even about the other person in the end either. At the end of the day it is about serving others through the love and grace of Jesus Christ and that makes me smile.
Ashli
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